我叫埃米莉

1、我太喜欢里面对一些感觉的表达了，开场艾米莉在浴缸里的那一幕十分吸引人。 “生活变化很快，就像幕后的山脉一样。有一天你醒来却不知道你是怎么到这里来的。然后你想，我睡了多久，我去了哪些地方，然而你什么都想不起来，所有的一切都与你上次醒来的时候不一样了。时间一年一年地过去，你非常明确地知道你将会死去。然后便出现了选择，继续睡觉，然后希望下次你醒来的时候，已经解决了这件事，而且也很开心。或者，你继续醒着，和这些差强人意的环境作斗争，去创造任何能够爱的东西。如果你躲避死亡，那么你就在躲避生活。” “街道总是延绵不断，但没有一条通往大海。游到最深处，下沉，下沉。游到最深处。”

“这个国家，城市，街道里都弥漫着悲伤。田地里和树林中也弥漫着悲伤。悲伤是无法隐藏的。失去我们所爱的人的事实，孤独的事实，事实只是观点而已。观点是可以改变的。” 2、事实是观点，因为大多数人都同意，所以观点才成为事实。也正因为事实是观点，所以事实也会改变。刘擎教授的《刘擎西方现代思想讲义》也提到尼采的视角主义。电影剧情的理解是：我们可以改变自己对生活的视角。通过重新构建视角，我们可以创造出新的事实。我们可以把自己视作一个人，一个人是孤独的。但我们也可以打开自己，把自己视作一个家庭的一份子，重新理解家人对我们的伤害，也可以构建新的关系，我们可以重新与爱链接。 3、影片里的父亲自顾不暇，所以“抛弃”了女儿。不由得想起我自己的经历。《当下的力量》这样理解父母带来的伤害：因为他们活在无意识里，他们活在思维里，而不是自己的本质里，所以他们受限于此，没有主动选择。对于他们的这种痛苦，唯一合适的反应是慈悲。也正是因为活在思维里，我们才会互相伤害。我不知道，未来是否能做出一些不一样的选择，来自于我的本体的。

4、关于里面的男友。我认为只是青春期的懵懂爱情，不是来自大人的成熟选择。但我很喜欢，一个人从封闭，到进入关系，融入爱情的这个过程。是我向往的。

每一部青春成长题材的电影都藏着一个面对未知现实的慌乱。但并不只有青春期的孩子会面对未知现实的慌乱，因为人的一生始终在无可选择的与那些让人兴奋的、紧张的、期盼的、抗拒的、迎刃而解的、难以承受的……改变狭路相逢。那些成年人在孩子面前所表现出来的老道与强大，不过是过来人的星点儿优势罢了。在改变带来的未知面前，所有人可能会因为无措而选择愤怒，因为怯懦而选择逃避，因为无助而选择另类，因为孤独而选择封闭……无论他是个孩子，还是已经为人父母。

《我叫埃米丽》用“少女寻父”这样一个公路片加上青春片的外壳，坦诚地讲述了孩子以及父母面对生活抛出的无经验现实问题时的慌乱姿态以及寻求解脱时的挣扎。温情地道出，面对诸如“失去”、“孤独”之类超出当下承受范围的现实时，悲伤、崩溃等消极情绪都是应该被正视与谅解的。因为无论是谁都是人生的探路者，即便睿智、即便成年、即便被贴着父母的标签、即便掌握着人生终极谜题答案，但感受、领悟、接受、拥抱生活这一过程都需要亲身实践。

女主角埃米丽在14岁时生日当天，因为一场车祸失去了母亲，也令她父亲罗伯特陷入崩溃。一贯用自然科学与哲学思辨寻求未知现实答案的成功作家罗伯特，没能像他初任父亲时那样依靠哲学获得生命的“通透”，反而在“疯癫”的路上越走越远，在疯人院里逃避他最后的挚爱，埃米丽。而因寄养生活历尽颠沛流离的埃米丽却始终认为父亲是被迫禁闭在疯人院的。生活的不幸让埃米丽拒绝一切示好，她用冷漠与愤怒把自己与外界疏离得愈发格格不入。她沉浸在悲伤的深渊中，只有母亲的手链、曾经与父亲海边的回忆、每个月和生日那天父亲寄给她的信件能够安抚她。在学校被视为怪人的艾米丽却深深吸引了帅气男孩阿尔丁。而艾米丽仿佛也不讨厌阿尔丁，向他坦言了父亲信件中断的担忧。两个年轻人在阿尔丁祖母的帮助下，开着阿尔丁祖父的黄色老爷车踏上了去疯人院解救父亲的旅程……

影片借抒情的背景音乐、如雨后那被淡淡忧伤浸润的清新风景、以及埃米丽与男伴阿尔丁拉近关系的冲突以及途中遇到的各种冒险铺垫酝酿整体情绪；通过女主重复的旁白对比女主寻父路上不同的心境与体悟，同时也为影片主题贯穿着积极的灵魂：“这个国家、城市、街道里都弥漫着悲伤，田地里和树林中也弥漫着悲伤，悲伤是无法隐藏的。”“事实只是观点而已，观点是可以改变的。”“生活变化很快，就像暮后的山脉一样起起伏伏。“有一天你起来却不知道怎么到了这里，然后你想，我睡了多久？我去了哪些地方？我怎么会在这儿？然而你什么都想不起来，所有的一切都与你上次醒来的时候不一样了。然后你在照片中开心的笑，只因为你很快乐。”

到底埃米丽寻到了怎样的结果？那就随着小黄车开启一段成长旅程吧！

A fact is a point of view, and a view can change.

昨天傍晚，不想干别的事情，无聊翻出了这部片子来看。起源可能是前一天bilibili上刷到一部电影的剪辑，来豆瓣搜了一下发现剧情我没有很喜欢，但从它的相关推荐里找到的这部。

整部电影色调都有北欧那种特有的阴沉，氤氲笼罩，Emily就像沉溺在了无边大海里的鱼，忧郁和痛苦席卷而来。当时七点左右看完觉得，啊好独特的一部片子，我要马上写下影评记录下来，但因为该是做饭的时间了，就放到了现在来写，竟然一时间回忆不怎么起应该从何说起，应该写些什么，就记得淡淡的一丝悲伤忧郁的感觉了。

怎么说，本ENFP典型快乐小狗其实真的无法感同身受她的处境和感受，奇奇怪怪的一个人属于是。但毕竟是主人公，对人物的性格用几个简单的事例进行阐释和强化，也算是可接受，而那个男孩子一见钟情，几天内为了她不管不顾，开着外祖父的车和一大后备箱的用品就能直接横跨几百公里，就是非常的不真实，当成爱情片可以一乐。

不过确实也有让我感动的地方。在Emily溺水而男孩子把她救起来的时候，她突然紧紧抱住了他，终于接纳也终于信任他的感觉是真的眼眶瞬间湿润。还有反复提及的触电的感觉，头蹭在锁骨上，嘴唇接触缠绵，都是爱情里很富有想象的画面，特别是他们深夜在帐篷里手指在手臂上滑动那一幕拍的非常的唯美。

或许这是她的一部自我救赎的片子，也或许是他的，也可能是她父亲的，但总之，能解开心里的结，继续过下这个糟糕的人生，也是一种解脱吧。

The first half of the movie seems a bit of monotonous and boring, I can’t help being moved to tears at the end…

Emily is a middle school pupil lives in a foster family. All her schoolmates think Emily is a freak because she rarely speaks, is hard to get along with,offends the teacher, and even intentionally drowns herself once. Only Arden, a shy boy is always caught eyes on her by her mysterious temperament. Emily's biological mother died on one of her birthdays. Her biological father went crazy shortly after that and was institutionalized to the psych ward. Emily keeps in touch with her father through the birthday cards he sends her every year. When her father doesn't send a birthday card on her 16th birthday, Emily decides to take matters into her own hands. Enlisting Arden's help, she runs away, and the pair sets out on a road trip to break her father out of the psych ward.

I think Arden decides to help Emily for two reasons:

1. He likes her and her quiet character, shows kindness to her, sends a book as a birthday gift to her. Though Emily replies her coldness to Arden, treats him like the others.
2. The morning that Emily askes Arden, his parents were quarreling, and his father even had punched his head. Maybe he already has the idea of escaping from his parents in his mind for a long time, and just that morning, Emily gives him a sound reason and his grandmother also encourages him, providing everything he needs for their runaway.

Emily knows nothing about the second reason. She thought Arden maybe look more innocuous than the others; and maybe he is just interested in her skin and body, which is as shallow as the others. Yet Emily has no choice because she needs one's help in her plan of rescuing her father, and Arden is the only one she knows in that city.

As their journey progresses, Emily and Arden must depend on each other as they learn about life, love, loss, and letting go.

Emily's world collapsed suddenly when Mr. Goulding, the Director of the psych ward told her the fact. Her father was volunteered to stay here, not by any duress，which Emily can’t accept. How her father, the one she loves so much, could leave her behind as an orphan, letting her face the malevolence of the world alone as a 14 ages child. She doesn’t understand. She feels angry and grief so deeply. Mr. Goulding is very gentle and kind, tries to explain more, so Emily could be comforted. Even the reason sounds like a series of philosophical enlightenments.

Yet I like every word of those sayings from Mr. Goulding,

“I often think the world turns out inside, Emily. People send the ones of physically and mentally innocent to me.

Have you read Plato? He wrote a great piece of poem——the Allegory of the Cave.

All the people are sitting a row in the cave, staring at the shadow flaming on the wall. For them, the shadow's the reality. One man frees him out, and finds a path out to the light. He’s down on the sun, and he’s enlightened. This man walks back to the cave, back into the shadow, back to free people. This man who saw the light, instead of basking in it, returned to help the others, which is according to Plato. A philosopher, this man is your father.

The problem with the shipping people out of the darkness, is that the philosopher himself is blinded by the glared sun, or by grief, can loss the graben of what is the real, and what is the illusion.

This place is a cave for many people.”

This movie has a happy ending. Emily and Arden find her father in her grandfather’s sea house. Emily forgives her father, and she doesn’t mention any clue of those horrible foster experiences in the past two years. They make an agreement that her father, as a writer will live in the sea house, and Emily will go back to Mrs. Joan, a sort of nice foster mother lately.

There are so many beautiful Irish sceneries in the movie.

One more plot moved me into tears at the end. In her grandfather’s old sea house, Emily finally asks Arden why he would take those hardships and dangers to help her? For any shallow purpose? Arden goes angry and leaves Emily alone in the house. But later when Emily says to Arden that she doesn’t want to go back to the house because of the complain on her father, Arden says to Emily,

“We can leave anytime if you want.”

Emily replies to him this time, “Thanks for coming with me, Arden.” Arden smiles shyly and scratches his hair a little bit, and says “You’ve welcome.”

When they walk toward to the house where her father is in, and also the car of Arden parks, Arden holds Emily’s hand and says,

“Come on. Why not say something about me to your dad.” ——What avirtuousquality!!! The very first time, Emily willingly does as what Arden says.

I see little piece of heartfelt seen of pure emotion. Story takes turn and some seen are just not what you want or unnecessary, but this story strictly tells us that emotions of human beings may be complicated, and the reason for the complexity is just simple:

We pay so much effort or even a whole life, just want to see we are loved by the one who we love.

Emily has found she is loved by her father who she loves. How about ours?

印象最深刻的一句话：A fact is a point of view, and a view can change.而这句话我认为是贯通整部电影的。

片头是Emily在水中 阐述一些观点，像是只对自己说的，气氛压抑 抑郁 孤独。然后交代了Emily的生活状况，从小被人叫怪物，而只有爸爸告诉她，她确实是怪物，然后翻开一本书：古英语中怪异被定义为，定数 命运 或者操控命运的能力。Emily知道了自己的不同，有父亲的肯定，却也更加自信。之后一次生日，父亲与母亲给出门给Emily买礼物时发生车祸，父亲目睹母亲车祸身亡，父亲情绪大崩，对一个概念深深入迷到疯狂的地步，并在马路上身体赤裸。Emily14岁时父亲因精神疾病住进医院，从那之后Emily便寄养到各亲戚家中。没有父亲的陪伴，她变成了片头出现的样子，认为只有自己是对的，只听自己的声音，按照自己的想法做每件事。

直到有一天父亲停止给他写信，她便找上唯一会帮助他的同学，走上寻找父亲之路。到了精神病院。得知父亲已经离开，并且14岁时父亲的离开是自愿所为，她无法理解父亲的行为。而Emily认为父亲会去一个地方，随后她和同学便去了这个房子等候。父亲果然出现了，她质问父亲为什么丢下年幼的她。父亲没有给解释她，Emily想不通，跑到附近小时候玩耍的海边，跳了下去。同学看到立马把她救了上来。

躺在沙滩上的Emily突然相通：fact is a point of view，而观点是可以改变的。回来便原谅了父亲，交谈相处中，发现父亲还是小时候那个父亲，可以信任、依靠、倾诉。对同学一直的拘束不信任也放开了胸怀，试着改变观点，享受最好的自己。